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Well, I'm here....

I feel so...left out. Lately, it just seems as if I'm not part of anything. Once again, I feel as if I don't truly belong anywhere. I know part of my anti-social behaviour is because of work and living arrangements - neither are really optimal. Unfortunately, I can't do much about where I live at the moment. Lack of money, and frankly, planning on my part have seen to that.
I've been reading here tonight, and seeing the things that people are going through. I don't hear it first hand - with some I never do, and that's fine. With others though - its just struck me how much I'm outside of things. I've wondered recently if anyone would miss me were I to disappear. Hell, half the time I wonder if anyone would notice.
Don't worry folks, I'm not talking suicide. Not even thinking of that extreme - I have much to live for. They come in the form of two bundles of chaos that have a penchant for driving me absolutely out of my mind. And in the blink of an eye, they manage to put the world into perspective.
I have more to say, more to update. But, really, I don't have the energy right now. I should be asleep in preperation for a long day tomorrow - I've moved to 10 hour shifts. Ugh.

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( 6 comments — Drop A Feather )
swade2569
Apr. 30th, 2007 07:57 pm (UTC)
/hugs

I hope you find what you need for that social fulfillment.

I know for myself I'm the victim of my own social sabotage and I'm approaching a point where I'm ready to stop doing that to myself.
(Anonymous)
May. 1st, 2007 11:46 pm (UTC)
*hugs back*

Thank you. I think I've managed to sabotage my own social life too. I have plenty of excuses - most of which are reiteratted to others. Its no wonder no one asks!!
I need to change that - the trick is figuring out how, and how to keep from sliding back again
swade2569
May. 1st, 2007 11:55 pm (UTC)
I think a big part of it is momentum. Pushing yourself to get out there in some way, shape or form, and trying to continue to do that in the face of obstacles.

At least that's what I need to keep telling myself! hehe
onyxangel
May. 8th, 2007 03:18 pm (UTC)
So, in that vein...if you'd like, we should make plans to get together. The one time we did actually meet, I enjoyed :) I'm game for 'family' events too - as I know you're a family man, meeting the rest of the brood is always an option ;)
swade2569
May. 8th, 2007 03:27 pm (UTC)
Oh you creep me out with your mind-reading abilities.

Yes, in fact, I was thinking on the way to work this morning about suggesting the very same. I did enjoy getting to meet you last time too.

Yes, I would like to make plans to get together. What is your schedule like now? Mine is pretty much the same, on at 8 off at 5, M-F.

Since you helped create a tasty dinner last time we met, please let me treat you to dinner. Whaddya say? :-)
onyxangel
May. 21st, 2007 09:44 am (UTC)
You know, I meant to reply to this some time ago. I would very much like that :) I'm not going to post my number here, but it should be the same as before if you still have it.
If not, email me at onyxangel at gmail.
( 6 comments — Drop A Feather )

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