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May. 6th, 2002

Just once, I'd like to be someone's priority. Is it really too much to ask? I put so much of myself into things...even intimate friendships...and, sometimes, it just seems I get so little back. I don't want to deliver ultimatums, or lose friends....but, on the other hand...well, it hurts to always be put on the back burner because something else has come up. I realize that sometimes, somethings are going to take a priority over a friend and/or partner. It just seems sometimes, that its always that way when it comes to me. I get an apologetic smile and a shrug...."I'm sorry." So am I. I'm sorry it hurts when I'm left behind to sigh and think "here we go again". But...when you want attention, or want the friendship...I'm always there. Most of the time...I just accept it as my nature.....I put myself there, I know it. But...tonight, tonight, I want to cry. It just feels so fucking empty.

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ex_digitalis869
May. 7th, 2002 02:59 am (UTC)
Just once, I'd like to be someone's priority. Is it really too much to ask?

No, it's not too much to ask. I know how it feels. I've had many, many moments like that, with lovers and with friends.
onyxangel
May. 7th, 2002 09:38 am (UTC)
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I'll probably have many more...
ex_digitalis869
May. 8th, 2002 12:45 am (UTC)
You're in Seattle. We should hang out sometime. Interested in hitting a park with me some time? Or coffee?
onyxangel
May. 8th, 2002 09:58 am (UTC)
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Sounds cool to me! :)
ex_digitalis869
May. 8th, 2002 05:15 pm (UTC)
Cool! I'll shoot you an email when i have some cash inflow again. :}
onyxangel
May. 8th, 2002 05:18 pm (UTC)
Re:
otay :)

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