onyx (onyxangel) wrote,
onyx
onyxangel

Do you ever feel so small and insignificant that you just don't matter? It hit me hard tonight...like a wave that crashed over me, leaving me with tears threatening my eyes and a hollowness inside that can't be described. All at once, I was on the outside, looking in...the knowlege certain that I didn't belong. It wasn't that I felt lonely...just, hollow. That painful kind of hollow...a sort of remorse. In that moment, time stood still. It couldn't have lasted more than 30 seconds...but, the aftershocks. They weren't the same, but....they were still felt, keenly. Am I the only one who ever feels this way? What's wrong with me that I do?


Taste the salt upon your lips,
For the tears are genuine.
Drawn from the depths of who I am,
The very core of my soul.
Given freely in pain and honesty.
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