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Do you ever feel so small and insignificant that you just don't matter? It hit me hard tonight...like a wave that crashed over me, leaving me with tears threatening my eyes and a hollowness inside that can't be described. All at once, I was on the outside, looking in...the knowlege certain that I didn't belong. It wasn't that I felt lonely...just, hollow. That painful kind of hollow...a sort of remorse. In that moment, time stood still. It couldn't have lasted more than 30 seconds...but, the aftershocks. They weren't the same, but....they were still felt, keenly. Am I the only one who ever feels this way? What's wrong with me that I do?

Taste the salt upon your lips,
For the tears are genuine.
Drawn from the depths of who I am,
The very core of my soul.
Given freely in pain and honesty.


May. 10th, 2002 07:10 am (UTC)
No, you are not the only one. I think many, including me, feel this way
regardless of their situation or reasons. I don’t think anyone can sit back
and judge anyone’s feelings regarding this subject either. Many will say,
“Feel better, you have so much to be happy about.” That may be true if
they were you. I think only you will really be able to change
your feelings. Only you know what you need.

I personally don’t know what I am looking for. I have this void, this
emptiness, though many would say I shouldn’t. Unfortunately, I'm still
searching for missing element.

I don’t want to come off as negative, I truly hope you fund what you
need to fill your emptiness.
May. 10th, 2002 04:57 pm (UTC)
*smiles* I know what you mean. I'm happy with my life, its not that I'm not...its just...something's not there. A piece is missing. And sometimes, it just hits me with such force I feel like I'm going to tumble over.

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