onyx (onyxangel) wrote,

I want him to be happy, and I want him to move on. So, why is it, now that he's starting to, I can feel my heart breaking all over again? He's got someone new, and I don't begrudge him that. I'm glad he does, he deserves it. He deserves to be happy. And, despite my breaking heart, I hope she makes him happy.
On the other hand, I'm happy where I'm at too. Most things in my life are going alright, I can feel the light of the dawn, so to speak. I have a nw man in my life, and though neither one of us are sure that we want a relationship, I'm enjoying where we are. I like that he shows an avid interest in me and wants to spend time with me. And yes, he does read my journal I found out. *ahems* So, no more Wolfie for him. I can, however, use Fenris. So, there it is, your formal introduction to the man I spend time with. Well, at least as formal as its gonna get for now.
I shouldn't be heart broken at all. I know this...but, I am. A little bit of me. Maybe that's just the final lock in that closed door.

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