onyx (onyxangel) wrote,

Sometimes...it seems like things change too fast. Othertimes...not fast enough. At the moment, I'm caught in the middle of too fast and not fast enough. Change can be good, yet I go kicking and screaming the entire way. My rock....has shifted. He's moved elsewhere, and I'm left a little...lost. Its not a bad thing mind you..just. Well, different. He's no longer my rock, and I know this..have known it. But, change is never easy for me..and neither is letting go. I'm idling somewhere between letting go and moving beyond. The grip has loosened. That, at least, is something. And..I have something else now, a new solid base.
See, two people so far have the effect of being my center. And, now...its just a matter of shifting and letting go. I can do it, I need to do it. I will do it. I can feel that things have changed already...its in the way I talk to him. And..knowing that someone else is there for him. It didn't hurt as much as it should..or would have. It just feels...strange.

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