January 6th, 2003

devil girl

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I have my letter all written out. I did it on break...but, now, I'm nervous about handing it over to my supe, and I don't know why. I haven't done it yet, my plan is to do it on lunch.
I don't understand why I'm nervous about handing it over. Maybe its a sign that I've failed again? Or that its final? I've never been good at change. This just cements that things *are* going to change..for better or worse, I won't be here anymore.
While this thought is a relief, its also a bit scarey. I mean, I've been here 2 years. I have a job that pays commission at the moment..what if? Yeah, I know, I shouldn't do that to myself. It has to be better..maybe not financially..but, better just the same.
We'll make it, I know we will..so, why am I so reluctant to do this?
devil girl

The letter is in...

I promised myself I'd do it on my lunch, since I stalled on my break and printed it out at the last minute. So, here I am with 15 minutes left, and I just put it on his desk. I didn't want to...I don't know why. I made myself do it, and now I'm anxious. I don't know why I'm anxious, either. I should be happy, I know that I've made the right decision for me. Staying would only drive me nuts, and make me unhappy. I enjoy the people I work with, and hope to keep in touch with a lot of them...but, still, that shouldn't be holding me back.
My supe wasn't at his desk, so I just left it there, on his keyboard. I know he's going to want to talk about this...I have to go through exit interviews (or at least, people had to in the past) and stuff. For some reason, I'm not inclined to tell them I have a new job, even though its a better opportunity for me. I don't understand this feeling of almost panic. I almost want to go back and get it before he finds it..but if I do that, I'll kick myself. I'm not happy here, that alone should make me feel ecstatic about handing that letter in.
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devil girl

The letter is in...

I promised myself I'd do it on my lunch, since I stalled on my break and printed it out at the last minute. So, here I am with 15 minutes left, and I just put it on his desk. I didn't want to...I don't know why. I made myself do it, and now I'm anxious. I don't know why I'm anxious, either. I should be happy, I know that I've made the right decision for me. Staying would only drive me nuts, and make me unhappy. I enjoy the people I work with, and hope to keep in touch with a lot of them...but, still, that shouldn't be holding me back.
My supe wasn't at his desk, so I just left it there, on his keyboard. I know he's going to want to talk about this...I have to go through exit interviews (or at least, people had to in the past) and stuff. For some reason, I'm not inclined to tell them I have a new job, even though its a better opportunity for me. I don't understand this feeling of almost panic. I almost want to go back and get it before he finds it..but if I do that, I'll kick myself. I'm not happy here, that alone should make me feel ecstatic about handing that letter in.
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devil girl

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Well, its official. I'm gone as of the 15th. Joe (the trophy) just took my letter down to HR. As much as I grouse about him sometimes...I think I'll miss him.
devil girl

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Well, its official. I'm gone as of the 15th. Joe (the trophy) just took my letter down to HR. As much as I grouse about him sometimes...I think I'll miss him.
devil girl

Very interesting

I stumbled across this tarot site. You can do readings and various other things..membership appears to be free. I didn't have to enter any cc info at any rate..so, what the heck? I did a reading for today, and I'm mildly surprised by the accuracy.
I asked how successful I'd be at my new job.

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So, basically what it says to me is that if I let go of the past, believe in myself even when others may not recognize that its me doing the work and be creative that I'll do well at this new job.

Any opinions/insights?