December 3rd, 2005

devil girl

Rough night

Grandma's in the hospital. They did a cat scan for her because her kumadin
levels were high - that came back alright. No blood on the brain. They've
kept her overnight to make sure she's alright. She has another bladder
infection - or its worse, we're not sure which.

On top of that, both kids are sick. Mom took them to the doctor, and all
they said was it was a viral infection and it has to ride its course. Jae
isn't eating right now, and the poor girl is having tummy issues. Garrett
seems to be doing better, but he's so stuffed up he can hardly breathe.

While I was down, the universe saw it fit to kick me again. A guy I've been
interested in told me he found a relationship elsewhere. I'm happy if he's
found something good, it was more the timing than anything I think. It just
had a feel of "Here, while you're down there.." *kick*

However, I do remind myself that for every door that closes another opens.
Someone told me that there are "other fish in the sea". He wasn't the only
fish in my pond, so to speak. A blow to the ego, and a little hurt, but I'm
recoverable ;)

I'm a little upset that I may not make the party at the LH tonight. I mean,
I understand...but, I was looking forward to going. I'll call mom later and
see if its possible. If not, then I'm home for the night...yippee.

On this note of feeling like the universe is getting its jollies by kicking
me in the gut, I decided to get out my well-being cards. They're fluffy, but
I think that's what I need right now. I shuffled and three cards fell out.

By visualizing my desired outcome, the perfect action is always inspired.

Anything I can imagine being, doing or having - I can be, do or have

My joy doesn't depend upon the approval of others

I think I know what this refers to specifically. However, its good advice
generally. If I visualize what I want in my life, romantically or otherwise,
I will make the right choices to attain that. The second card just confirms
that view...if I can imagine what I want, I can attain that at some point. I
shouldn't worry about the approval of others in my pursuit of this joy.

I think, for now, that's enough. I may play with the other tarot deck in a
devil girl


Partnerships may exhibit a fated quality now as circumstances take on a life
of their own. Maintaining control over others is not a viable strategy, for
you won't be able to stop the inevitable. Instead, embrace the coming
changes, for they can bring you more exciting opportunities than you
currently realize.

That's my horrorscope for the day. Embrace the coming changes? They don't
know us tauruses very well, do they? >:P
devil girl

Yet another reading

This spread seemed appropriate for today. It's a love spread - not just
romantic type of love, but family/friends as well.



1. This card represents your love of yourself, self-love and
self-image, representing strengths and weaknesses, or issues to get through.
2. This card represents your love for others, your family, friends,
lovers. Can represent a specific person and how you react to him or her, or
how you see others, or a relationship.
3. This card represents another factor or person, something not
accounted for, because these situations are never simple! Can be a love
triangle, or a difficult choice.
4. This card represents strange Fate, or larger currents and
directions, situations out of your control. Also represents the love the
Universe holds for you, and your trust (or lack of faith) in that.

1. Wheel of fortune
2. Nine of Pentacles
3. Two of Swords
4. Page of Wands - with clarifying card Queen of Pentacles

My challenge is to remember that how I view things, including myself, is
within my control. I can change how I think about myself at any time, for
the better. Family and friends are often times a source of pride for me, and
I enjoy seeing them happy and contented. This could also elude to a
relationship in that I should not be afraid to find someone or make
adjustments to my lifestyle to find that someone. Often, my heart and mind
don't tend to agree. In order to progress, I should face this conflict and
make a decision - do I follow my head or my heart?

I don't really understand the significance of the court cards in the last
position. The page refers to studies, projects or career. Its about putting
thoughts into action, a careful progress. The queen gives the warning of not
sacrificing your spiritual, creative and emotional life for the sake of
being practical. I understand the meanings - I don't understand how it
relates to the position.

Ideas? Thoughts?