I have realized that I have not posted anything more than superficial stuff lately, with a few exceptions. Stuff that really isn't going to make a difference when I look back. Lately, there's been a lot on my mind, a lot of important stuff to think on and to feel...but I haven't taken the time to post it. I haven't had the time, but I can't expect that to be handed to me. There's so much to say, and nowhere to begin it all, so it sits here inside my mind, roiling and twisting about like a tormented girl in chains.
I read a journal today, and there was a story. It was a good story, even if I did feel I came in part way through it. I didn't look back, there's probably a beginning somewhere. In reading this, I realized, I want to write again. And not just sporadically like I'm inclined to do..but, really write. I always dreamed about writing professionally, but I think I lack the confidence in myself to get past the rejections. *sigh* I also lack some skill I think..but that, can be easily remedied. I mean some of it is just an out of practice thing,....like, in stories, I'm not good at conversation..that's correctible though. I want to write, damnit.