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Well, I made a decision on moving. I told Fenris yes. My main concerns about this were his daughter, and we finally talked about it. He's okay with letting us figure out our own relationship, which makes me feel *much* better. Also, she won't be living with us right away, which also makes me feel better.
We have the option of moving to another place. This has both pros and cons, as everything does. Fenris has some concerns, which have been somewhat discussed. This new place would be a little cheaper, by a couple hundred dollars. I would have a support network and so would his daughter. It would also have more space. 3 bedrooms, which leaves an altar room. I got to admit, I want an altar room. More discussion needs to happen I think, though he may be of the opinion the matter is closed. I told him last night to leave the options open for the moment. The other thing is, in a year and a half, he owns the trailer. Equity is a very good thing. With the other place, there's no option to own. There's also that the trailer belongs to a friend of Fenris', and he doesn't want to leave his friend in a lurch, which is totally understandable. As of yet, my end of the decision is not totally settled.
Class has been going alright, and I realize that I must update on the last two, which I will do soon. Sundays, I've been playing a WW game. Its been fun. I got the journal set up that I wanted to, and may need to make adjustments to it. Right now, there's nothing fancy as far as background and what not, but I'll work on it. If anyone knows of any good Vampie type pics, let me know? Thanks :) I have the okay to post my story, and bearwitched may do the same.
I have tentative plans to carve pumpkins next weekend with Pooh (Fenris' daughter). I'm looking forward to this, actually. I'm thinking Sunday may be a good time. I know that we have gaming then, but maybe we could do it later in the day, or something. She's never had pumpkin seeds, and I'd love to roast some. Must consider more of that.

This was a dedication ceremony. Not to a God or Goddess, but to learn about the ancient ways. I've been on this path for a bit, but it felt nice to state it to the spirits. We invoked the God and Goddess, as well as Spirit Guides. What's interesting is that when the God was called, I felt heavier. I mean, like something was weighting me down..but, not a burden. It tingled a bit. The tips of my fingers did, its that odd kind of numb that is but isn't. We created a circle, and one by one we approached the altar to make an offering and kneel before it. As we kneeled, we proclaimed our intent to learn, then Angela annointed us with oil and kissed our cheeks. After the ceremony, we chit chatted and relaxed.

This was more or less a discussion. There was a mixer before hand, which I missed part of. I didn't wake up to the alarm *sigh*. The intent was to get both classes together and see about doing one Samhain rit instead of two. I think the mixer went very well, everyone seemed nice and eager for it. Now, all that's left is some final planning and a set date. I volunteered to help, but don't know what I'm helping with yet. I'm looking forward to it. In the class, we talked about altars, and now I'm all excited about getting my altar up. Right now, its at the apartment, but I think soon it'll be at the trailer. I want a tiered altar, and I have some ideas of how to set it up. The only problem I see with this currently is that I don't have a God and Goddess set for the top tier. I'm sure this issue will be resolved eventually, but what do I do with it in the mean time? I'll figure it out. At any rate, I'm all excited about it :)

Fenris and I talked last night. It was nice to talk like that again, we haven't in a bit. Some serious talked, laced with laughter and teasing in the darkness of the bedroom. It always makes me feel closer to him, like he's showing me another little piece of himself. We talked about souls, and waht we see in each other's eyes. They are, after all, the window to the soul. We talked about many things, many 'deep' things. Its the moments like last night that I realize the most that I really do love him.


( 3 comments — Drop A Feather )
Oct. 14th, 2002 02:22 pm (UTC)
can I make at least one recommendation? Keep your finances seperate from his, until you're married. What I did with my fiance was have my own checking accts, and then a seperate, joint acct for the two of us.

Makes for less hassle if the two of you happen to break up.
Oct. 14th, 2002 03:18 pm (UTC)
We've discussed that, and most likely we'll have our own bank accounts and a household account. That makes the best sense to me, but we're working out the details :)
Oct. 15th, 2002 12:45 pm (UTC)
Re: finances
Actually, cindygerb and I still have separate checking accounts even though it will be 11 years in december...
( 3 comments — Drop A Feather )

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