We didn't go to dinner for my birthday as we had planned, financial difficulties reared their ugly heads. *sigh* Oh well. Maybe on Friday we can do that. I'm still wanting a steak..and craving hard tacos for some reason. Erg.
I'm still kicking around the idea of being a real estate agent. I'd still like to do it, but things aren't looking particularly hopeful right now. *sigh again* I'm going to try for a 3rd time out of Friday's paycheck, but if I can't manage it, I think its time to realize I'm being told something. With that, hopefully, something else will open up. I'm considering looking for full time work if this doesn't pan out...but, I don't know. It would mean leaving the kids at home with mom more often. Its not an issue of trust...its not mom watching them that I mind, its that -I- want to be home with them. I miss them terribly when I'm gone. However, working and bringing in an income has become more appealing to me. It allows me a greater sense of freedom than I had before. I don't feel like I rely on him for everything....and that's....well, that's a lot. No matter what I do, or what path I travel, it isn't going to be easy anymore. Not that it ever was.
As quoted in a book I'm reading "Nothing is ever easy..."