onyx (onyxangel) wrote,

Rough night

Grandma's in the hospital. They did a cat scan for her because her kumadin
levels were high - that came back alright. No blood on the brain. They've
kept her overnight to make sure she's alright. She has another bladder
infection - or its worse, we're not sure which.

On top of that, both kids are sick. Mom took them to the doctor, and all
they said was it was a viral infection and it has to ride its course. Jae
isn't eating right now, and the poor girl is having tummy issues. Garrett
seems to be doing better, but he's so stuffed up he can hardly breathe.

While I was down, the universe saw it fit to kick me again. A guy I've been
interested in told me he found a relationship elsewhere. I'm happy if he's
found something good, it was more the timing than anything I think. It just
had a feel of "Here, while you're down there.." *kick*

However, I do remind myself that for every door that closes another opens.
Someone told me that there are "other fish in the sea". He wasn't the only
fish in my pond, so to speak. A blow to the ego, and a little hurt, but I'm
recoverable ;)

I'm a little upset that I may not make the party at the LH tonight. I mean,
I understand...but, I was looking forward to going. I'll call mom later and
see if its possible. If not, then I'm home for the night...yippee.

On this note of feeling like the universe is getting its jollies by kicking
me in the gut, I decided to get out my well-being cards. They're fluffy, but
I think that's what I need right now. I shuffled and three cards fell out.

By visualizing my desired outcome, the perfect action is always inspired.

Anything I can imagine being, doing or having - I can be, do or have

My joy doesn't depend upon the approval of others

I think I know what this refers to specifically. However, its good advice
generally. If I visualize what I want in my life, romantically or otherwise,
I will make the right choices to attain that. The second card just confirms
that view...if I can imagine what I want, I can attain that at some point. I
shouldn't worry about the approval of others in my pursuit of this joy.

I think, for now, that's enough. I may play with the other tarot deck in a

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