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I haven't been able to fully wrap my mind about this. I'm not sure why, and I'm not entirely sure how to feel about it. I've been thinking about the pair of Athames lately.
The high priest athame, in case, I haven't described it previously, has a gold hilt and sheath. The sheath is interlaced with a deep, deep blue. On the hilt is a Tibetan dragon, and on the sheath is a Lion. The high priestess blade, I believe is a small dragon. Its done in the same Tibetan style, gold and blue as the Priest blade, but a bit smaller.
I am coming to realize that the dragon represents me. In all its forms, Asian, Western. Its what most people associate with me. This, despite the fact that I've been collecting them most of my life, is a fairly new realization to me. Tyr is represented by the Lion, which is his symbol. It isn't this that I have an issue with, but the timing of things.
The blades were chosen about a year before I ever met Tyr. I chose them. Both of them. Bryan had told me that the one would be for High Priest, which, I assumed would be him, since there was the intent of me being his High Priestess. He confessed to me the other day that he only let me think the blade was his.
What does this mean? It means, that before I ever met Tyr, I knew him. I knew he'd be in my life. Or, someone like him. I'm not sure if there's anyway to tell if it was him specifically. It means, that I chose him. And it means that his life is more intertwined with mine than I ever guessed. This..is strange to me. I've never before chosen something with regard to a person I've never met. There's a bond there that I'm only just beginning to realize, and in some respects, it scares me. At the same time, it makes me secure. I know that he'll be there. He's meant to be. I'm not saying that he's meant to be my lover until the end of time...just, that he's meant to be a part of my life in some capacity for some time to come. Maybe even a lifetime. This is a comforting thought. What's unsettling is....I chose the blades before I ever met him......


( 2 comments — Drop A Feather )
Mar. 19th, 2002 10:38 pm (UTC)
Its not so strange :)
I think it all makes perfect sense to me. We click that way. :) The more I learn, the more I reflect, the more I think you and I found each other because we were supposed to. Think about all we've learned already about ourselves and each other. Places and mindsets we've reached we might otherwise have not. Its actually mildly amazing to me, looking back on the last five months. Its also not disturbing to me, the idea that we'll be around each other for a significant time. Like you touched on, in whatever capacity, we're good for each other. :) Miss you darlin'. :)
Mar. 19th, 2002 11:58 pm (UTC)
Re: Its not so strange :)
*purrs softly* You know I love it when you call me darlin'..
And, I worry that some of this, might scare you...maybe scare you away. I'm glad that it doesn't...and I'm glad that you understand, more than I realized, I think. You know that my feelings for you run deep. You are the calm in my storm. I miss you.
( 2 comments — Drop A Feather )

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