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Another though just occured to me...perhaps I should putting more of myself into the journal. I mean, more than what I do with my day or what goes on currently. A bit of my past may not be a bad idea. It is, after all, a part of who I am...and the reasons I became *how* I am. The past is something I look at, sometimes through rose tinted glasses, and sometimes with a sigh. I try not to regret anything, and for the most part, I don't. I like to think that I've taken the lessons well and learned from them, even if a few of them were pretty harsh. I've had a good life, and most of it seems to have disappeared from memory into that nameless, shiftless fog that seems to cloud my mind most of the time. I have entire years that I just simply don't remember. *shrugs faintly* But, I do have other memories...and I have memories that I'm not entirely sure are memories. They seem real, but I'm not entirely sure they happened...I have a very vivid imagination, and if it was something I thought about often, pictured often.....its possible the line of imagined and real blurred enough that I'm no longer able to tell. That sounds incredibly bad...and like I lie compulsively or so much so that I don't know what's truth anymore, which isn't it. I tend to exaggerate sometimes, but I don't lie...I have no reason to, really. I may give things a different slant than they had the last time I told the story...but, at the moment, that's how I remembered it. High school, for example, will sometimes be remembered as a good place...other times just a place I spent 4 long years trying to pry myself away from people...and yet other times, just a place I'd rather not think about. *shrug*
Well, judging by my clock and rapidly rambling thoughts, I'd better get my scruffy ass off the work computer and head to the car, I think my carpool person is almost ready to go.

Comments

( 6 comments — Drop A Feather )
luxxdesade
Apr. 8th, 2002 08:58 pm (UTC)
Hey putting yourself into your journal is always a positive :)

Not only is it cathartic, it can really help you bridge gaps in life, and friends(if they read yer journal).

anyway welcome and thanks for adding me who ever ya are :)

Ciao
onyxangel
Apr. 8th, 2002 09:18 pm (UTC)
LOL...I'm onyx ;) I stumbled onto you, but honestly, I don't remember how.
luxxdesade
Apr. 8th, 2002 09:25 pm (UTC)
Its ok, no one knows how they stumble onto me, they just do...

and regret it a long LOOOOOOOOOOONG time
onyxangel
Apr. 9th, 2002 09:49 am (UTC)
Re:
LOL...
onelonelypoet
Apr. 9th, 2002 05:46 am (UTC)
Make em wait :P
onyxangel
Apr. 9th, 2002 10:05 am (UTC)
Re:
hehe
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